It really REALLY bothers me that we can spoon for hours all night 'n' its so sweet and then the next day in school I completely get ignored or my phone calls don't get answered,..

I really REALLY need to move on from this situation,..its not healthy and everytime I start normalizing my life,..I revert right back to the same old thing,..

The good times were sooooo amazing,..

Al green, John Legend concert, jersey shore walk to 7-11, all the late nite trips to philly to walk around have dinner or see a movie, GA, Jessica's home for 2 days,...the whole thing was sooo surreal,..but so unreal,...

+ H.U.M.A. @ 8:20 PM

Been a really long time,..already 2006,..a lot has happened,...

Parents are currently at Hajj,..found out 300 people died at Hajj,..how sad,..people dying for such a sincere, good cause,..

Started Boards Boot Camp,..I am freakin' out about boards but i'm trying not to get myself worked up,..

Parents got a nice apartment on Park Ave. in NY so I spent most of my winter break going to NY to the apartment,..Im soo pissed with Nadia,..she was supposed to go to Florida this winter break with me but cancelled our plans last min. b/c she couldn't get off of work then ended up going to London with her friends or her Hindu bf or w/e,...that's dick

Bryan is acting like such a dick to me,..I think he has finally realized that we can't be bf/gf unconditionally,..he is being so cold to me,..doesn't want to hang out, acts weird in school,.doesn't want to study with me,.I catch him text messaging other girls which really hurts me b/c I do really care about him and we have been thru a lot but enuf is enuf,..I adore him but this is tooo much,..How come he is not realizing that he is being such a prick to me? I have nothing but be an amazing person to him but b/c he is not getting what he wants and the relationship is not the way he wants,..he is just going to be like,..'w/e,..it's all good,..i don't care,..im gunna play my online blackjack,..football bets,..meet other girls,..',... =(,..and to think just a few months ago in his mom's house,.,..that night he told me that he was inlove with me and really wanted to be with me for the rest of his life,..he was soo sincere that nite and he got upset when I had walked away to take in what he had said,...I will never forget that night,..

The Z wakes up every morning at 5 am and starts to jump around and go crazy,..I took him home for 2 weeks of winter and my parents LOVED LOVED LOVED him,.,,,

Spoke to Muz 2 weeks ago,..glad I called him,...things are not back to normal but atleast we spoke,..

My hair has been falling out,.it is kind of freakin' me out,...stess? straightener? chemicals?....I need to figure out what is going on with that,..

Aapi Semiformal at Akbar,...I planned the ENTIRE event by myself and it was a huge success,..almost 200 people,.everything was great,..i was soo relieved,..my friends came thru to support me and I love them for it,...

Tired now,..

+ H.U.M.A. @ 9:28 PM