True-Ryan Cabrera,...that song has been stuck in my head for days

It's been a while and a lot has happened,...can't believe it's back to class starting Monday,..this break flew by and it didn't really feel like a break at all.

Went to NYC last week for 2 days and got to meet up with some old friends and spend some time with Muz which was really nice,..I love NYC and I'm so happy when I'm there,..

Finally met up with an old friend after a year,...it was strange putting a face to a personality. Saw Phantom of the Opera the movie,..it was brilliant,..broadway really does something to me

And then the sad news,..nana had a heart attack last friday due to complications from an infection that cud have easily been cured with some simple antibiotics had he just told someone,..damn desi males,..it's so frustrating it makes me want to scream knowing this cud have all been avoided. He has been in the Critical Care Unit for a week now,..he is getting stronger but unfortunately there are sooo many factors involved,..his heart is very weak, he is a diabetic, due to his stroke years ago, the heart attack has completely weakened his right side. He will need serious physical therapy WHEN (inshallah) he gets out of the hospital. When I first saw him lying in the bed, breathing with a machine, all these needles in him, I started crying and couldn't stop,.seeing my loving, dependent grandfather lying there so helpless just killed me,..I sat by his side for almost 13 straight hours holding his hand, massaging his arm, wiping his face with cool towels to bring down his 103 fever,..it makes me shudder just to think of how he was but Allah Ka Shukr he is definitely doing better,...

I really wish he was here,..i dunno why but all this made me miss him so much,..wanting him to be here with me and my family, even if that wudnt be appropriate,...tomorrow is the last day of 2004,..i wonder what 2005 will bring,..God knows

I'm very glad that no one in D's family was affected by the tragic events of the tsunami that killed 100,000. It's so so so sad how many lives were taken/affected. All this has really made me appreciate and love my family and friends,....Dont dont dont dont EVER take anyone you care aboutm, family or not, for granted,...b/c u never know when they will no longer be there.

+ H.U.M.A. @ 6:29 PM

I am FINALLY done with my first semester of medical school,.Skuhr Allah,...I am freakin' exhausted,..having barely slept at all over the past 2 weeks (and only an hour last nite),,....and I've been stressing like crazy,..it's soooo weird not having anything to do,.I keep thinking,..what do I need to study now?

I really REALLY need this time to myself,..to reflect on med. school, my family, my past relationships as well as my new ones. I need to get my life back into moderation,.emotionally, physically, religiously,.everything,..

Umbie and Fas came down last nite 'cuz Fas had an exam in philly and umbie has never been down to visit me,..it was so cool having them in the school with me and my friends while we were studying,..Umbie met my friends and she really likes them and she loves my school (esp. my cadaver Charlie),...it was chill spending the day with my sibs after my crappy biochem exam,.bleh,.i HATE biochem!

I'm really lookin foreward to the next 2 1/2 weeks to chill with friends and relax and catch up on my favorite pasttimes (ie: movies)

What does next semester hold for me? ANATOMY,..I'm freakin' scared as hell,..but inshallah I'll get over my fears and make it happen,.besides I have the BESTEST anatomy group so it's allllll good =)

'If luvin' u is wrong,...I dun wanna be rite'

+ H.U.M.A. @ 11:37 PM