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    Saturday, November 27, 2004

    thanksgiving was really nice,.seeing all my family and friends,..AC was a site to see,..sharing the experience with a loved one made it all the more special,..I really needed this weekend,..to restore our faith,..its been so long since things were 'normal' btwn us,...but im really glad we got to talk to just spend some time together,...

    im so scared,..i dont know what to think about that and it's upsetting me so much,..every thought is running thru my head and i am anticipating the worst,..to know that there is something that is enuf of an issue to end it all,..after everything,...i think NOT knowing hurts more than anything else,..

    I know what I WANT, now I have to figure out if it is what SHOULD BE,...I'm so afraid to think of this any other way,..to lose someone so special to me, someone who has been a KEY player in my life,...What is the right thing to do? Which path should I take?

    =*(

    + H.U.M.A. @ 11:15 PM

    Monday, November 22, 2004

    Went to Boston this weekend. It was quite an impulsive move on my part but I really wanted to head up for a couple of reasons so I booked my ticket the day before and headed was in Boston by friday evening. It was nice showing up at Usman's b-day dinner and surprising everyone. Got to spend some qt with some people while not as much as I would have liked with others. Really glad that I got to see Dewi before she left for France. I'm gunna miss that girl. I totally don't see her as Diah's sister but rather just part of the gang,..hmmm. It's scary how fast time is flying and how people are starting to drift away one by one. First Tooba and Asif, then Muz and I, now Dewi, then Nik, Usman, Diah and Amir? What's going to happen to the muslim soul at Tufts?

    The weekend flew by. As nice as it was being back, it was only that much harder to board the plane and leave. I really luv Boston and my friends. Just chillin' with them honestly does wonders to me. Attending the Eid dinner, going bowling, Jay's for omelettes, meeting Usman's friends who were madddd chill, watching a movie, out to a nice dinner which I can't afford,...:: sigh ::,..it's unfair that I can't where and with the people that truly make me happy. But I have to admit, something was VERY different this time, and not a Good different. People seemed madd distant and on edge. Also, not having my undergrad friends there definitely made the experience seem strange. Infact, some aspects of this weekend were somewhat unsettling. What is going on? Is it me? Is it them?

    I hated hearing some of the things that I heard and feeling the way I felt at certain instances. So distant and removed,.....and at times even hurt.

    It scares me to think that something that once brought such comfort, strength and joy to my life can someday suddenly be gone, just like that. Can you honestly tell me that after all that, one can just let go of everything and walk away, as if the whole undergrad experience never existed?

    I'm not unhappy, not by any means. But I am definitely torn and confused. I know where I am, but where are you and who are you?





    + H.U.M.A. @ 11:56 PM

    Monday, November 08, 2004

    Been a while since I've written. A lot has happened in the past coupla days. First, I moved into my new apartment which I love. Thanx Ade, Sarah and Muz for all ur help,...
    I met up with Amina, her friend, Arooj and Dija in Philly for dinner at Cosis then I went to back to Dija's to chill. It was really nice walking around the city and chillin' with some paki girls. I adore Dija. Kam, Abie and Oomer came to pick me up 'cuz the station wz quite a walk from Dija's apt. and they didn't want me walking around Philly alone at nite, so that was mad chill. Apparently I was 'mad' at Abie's and it was 'annoying.' But when they found out the reason, I think they understood.

    Faisal came on Thursday and a bunch of us went to Kabul in Philly. Dr. Clower's picked up the tab which was really generous but unnecessary. Then we went back to my apt. and all chilled for a while. I'm glad Fas met my friends.

    Friday, studied all day then went to Philly with Kam and Oomer to walk around Penn campus and Drexel. Met up with Ali Qari (I promised his mom I would check on him and report back to her). He is such a nice kid. I hope he finds a good click at Drexel. We walked around South Street and that was mad cool. The romantic comment, me stepping back, 'aggrevating', it was all sooo f'ked up and taken the wrong way. Shit man,...what the hell happened? One minute,..and then the next,.....It's really disappointing actually. Back to my place to watch Russell Peters then to Stratford Diner for Sahoor.

    Saturday, studied at Starbucks with Judy and Sarah and then dinner at Red Lattern with Dalal, Manal (gorgeous), Rick, L'mont, Oomer, and Kam. Akward. Went over to straighten 'ish out. Really upsetting convo. Studied there,...questioned,..not worth the effort anymore?

    It's too bad really,...

    Miss my baby,..umbie is sad,,...wanna cheer her up

    + H.U.M.A. @ 4:13 PM