First and foremost, when did my lil baby cousins become so damn mature, clever, and independent (as well as a bit haughty and know-it-allish)? Wow,...I must be getting really old. It's really scary how fast they grow up. My 6 year old cousin was explaining the in-and-outs of the car transmission or something like that,..he even noticed that I had dented the side of my car and its not THAT noticeable!

Newayz,..officially moved into my new place. All set up and furnished. I really love the place and I have full tv access with 3 hbo's so I'll be plopped in front of the tv every chance i get 'cuz I am the biggest movie buff. Speaking of, I really wanna c The Village but with whom, myself? Yea, I don't think so. Hmmm, I miss seeing scary movies with my friends in Boston,.:: sigh ::

This area is going to take some serious getting used to. It's like living off rt. 22 or rt. 10 in Jersey. All stores, Dollar shops, restaurants, hair dressers and barber shops, etc....God, do I miss Boston. Evening drives down Storrow or Mem. and long walks along the Charles, or around ponds, going to Jillian's or Bowling for a little friendly competition, eating at the various restaurants and trying out new cuisines together,...oh lord, here I go again. This place is jsut going to take some serious getting used to. But, Khadija is going to pull me into the Philly crowd of Pakis and Muslims so I'm looking foreward to that 'cuz Im hella close to Philly.

I know everyone thinks it is stupid of me to say this, but I'm really afraid I won't make any real, genuine friends here, atleast not like the ones in Boston. I'm so worried about that.

I'm determined to do this but I'd lie if I said that I'm not concerned. The next several months are going to determine a lot regarding this situation,..I pray everything goes smoothly and I'm willing to put the effort in to make it happen.

The 'rents are ON faisal's case about that whole deal. We discuss it quite a bit and he really respects my opinion but ultimately it is all his decision,..I pray God guides him to the right one.

I've become quite a little domestic cat. I cook and clean and even stitch things, or atleast I have been for the past several weeks,..I'm actually enjoying it quite a bit.

+ H.U.M.A. @ 8:09 PM

Tired, so tired.  About to pass out so it duznt make sense that Im blogging instead of sleeping but then again a lot of what I do duznt make sense.

Tonight was saara's baraat and nikka.  She is officially Saara masood.  It was a beautiful wedding, mashallah.  Everyone looked so amazing.  The event was primarily 20something single males and females.  So many of the girls were wearing Sari's, including me. 

Talked to Danyal (Shirmeen's brother) for a while.  He is a really nice guy, too bad he chooses to do what he does.  I also spoke briefly to Sabih.  I dont get that kid.  I just wanted to clear the air and make him realize he had no right to bitch me out or have animosity towards me.  He apologized and said that I was right and it was unfair of him to be that way towards me.  I dont plan to speak to him, I just wanted him to realize he was being very unfair. 

I ADORE Maneeha.  The girl is sooo much fun.  We were goofing off the whole time.  I also got to talk to Omar's friend Sana for a while.  Im going to miss that girl.  I wish she was around longer so that we could get to know eachother better.

Ram o ram o ram,...what am I going to do with you?  I adore the kid but at the same time, sometimes he is so unfair and his requests/comments are so unjustified.  But,..after 5+ years, Ive learned how to handle it, and appreciate the good with the bad.

The naners are back in the states and staying with us.  I hope they are at ease while they are here. 

+ H.U.M.A. @ 2:18 AM

It's been over a week since I've written which is a probably a good sign.  I actually had a somewhat productive week.  I did quite a bit of shopping with my parents for the apartment.  I'm glad with our purchases, 'smart shopping.'  I also cooked this week and pretty well which was reassuring bc I am going to be totally cooking for myself at med. school. 

I went to dinner (Olive Garden) and saw King Arthur on Sunday night with my family which was really nice.  It's not often that we do something, just as a family, besides eat dinner together at home so it is exciting when we go out.  Obviously we had some interesting dinner conversations.  This whole marriage topic is sooo played out now.  There is so much uncertainty with it all, from both ends, and if the wrong move is made, it could completely ruin chances for any type of future.  I say bleh to it all. 

Glad my friend called tonight.  We didnt talk for long but it is nice and refreshing to touch base every other day or so.  It shows that one cares and does want to make the friendship last.  Rock on baby =)

Had dance practice last night at Mona's.  It was soo much fun.  We girl talked, watched dolkhi dances, practiced our dances and went out for a LATE LATE dinner.  It's been a long time since I've enjoyed the company of JUST my New Jersey girlfriends.  Also, I hung out with Maneeha.  She is the most adorable, friendly girl and I'm looking foreward to hanging out with her again.

I got my laptop today!  She is sooo pretty ::sigh::  Actually, I am typing on her right now.  I had a lil problem with her today but nothing that a 3 hr convo. with the Hp compie guy couldnt solve.  I'm still thinking of a name for her.  I was gunna call her Charlie but I think people will kill me if I use that name again.  People are such haters.

Went to a dolkhi at Raza's tonight.  Sang shaadi songs, gup shupped and mingled with people I haven't seen in a while.

I've become really money conscious which I'm actually glad about.  I've never had an issue with money (meaning, I've never let myself overspend or get into debt) but now I think I have become a lot more practical about spending.  Huma's growing up!

Signing the lease and starting to move into my apartment tomorrow.  I'm really looking foreward to having my own place.  And then Saturday is the Mehndi, Sunday is the Shaadi, and Monday my mom is having a dinner for the new bride, Tuesday my furniture is being shipped to the apartment in the morning, Wednesday I'm off (inshallah) to NYC and Thursday I am officially moving into the apartment permanently and my parents are driving a Uhaul down to bring the rest of the furniture.  Bz bz week,....I am so ready for it. 

   

+ H.U.M.A. @ 3:11 AM

I HATE how females get such cravings and binge eat during that time of the month. Its so annoying. Literally, I think I ate everything I could get my hands on today. And whenever a commercial would come on for some food, like for example, a commercial for cheese came on and then I just HAD to make myself a cheese sandwich,..AHHHH! Its soo unfair what we as females have to go thru. It seriously is like a 92-8 ratio of the crap woman have to go thru verses what guys have to deal with,..and yet they STILL think they can complain about things and make demands from us!

Diah wont name her potential REAL kitty cat after me,..thats messed up. =)

Diah told me they all went to say peace to Usmans parents and they ended up having the marriage talk again. Lol, I think thats the most popular topic of discussion these days. Well, Im in nooo rush to jump on that bandwagon. I need to take care of Huma for the next year ATLEAST. Then, we will see =)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 10:32 PM

Hana Imed me yesterday and we chatted for a long time online. Im really glad she apologized and took the initiative to approach me bc there were so many times when I wanted to call/IM her but I had no idea where she stood on the whole issue. I missed talking to her and we both regret leaving Tufts/graduating (gala, senior week, etc) not being on good terms or even talking. But no regrets,...we have both learned and grown from the experience and hopefully we can look foreward to a healthy, happy friendship.

:: smiles :: 101501

Went to Garden State Plaza on Tuesday. Met up with Ram, Al, Fatz, Saliha, Nadu, Zara, and Amina. I seriously dont get Ram. Granted, being predictable is not a problem but want I dont get is how someone can change so fast, back and forth.

It was nice that the Mr. called on Tuesday night. We didnt even know he was gunna but my parents thought it was a nice, genuine gesture. =) Im glad with the current status of the whole situation. Not too fast, not too slow,...just right.

Worked at dads office yesterday from 1 pm-9 pm. Man, I honestly think one of the requirements of being a physician is to be crazy unorganized and have illegible notes. My goal is to organize my dads office and files over the next week.

Starting to go thru all my stuff today to organize myself and pack everything up. Trying to figure out this whole dsl/cable/phone/internet issue. Its soo expensive. Ugh, I hate money I really do.

I talk to Muz quite often. Its kinda nice that we are making an effort to keep intouch. However, I shudnt jump the gun bc neither of us have yet to start our respective new lives so things might change but im hoping they dont.

Gone to the orthodontist, dermatologist and opthamologist in the past week. Damn,...talk about overload. Well, atleast ill have a perfect smile, a nice complexion and good vision (I hope).

Alia Chaudharys Mehndi tomorrow. I hope I click with the person in question. So far so good but lets see. This weekend should tell a lot.

Noor and Danish both called me 2 days ago. I didnt answer the phone for either of them but how weird is that? Danish was like, yo if ur back in jersey, we should meet up or something. I dont think thats happening cuz Im a one-man-kinda-woman =) and that whole Danish thing is territory that im in no position and have no desire to explore. Both guys were childhood crushes and thats exactly where I plan to leave it at.

+ H.U.M.A. @ 11:14 AM

How the hell does someone hit 2 of their own cars together? Man, I swear I must be seriously talented or something. Major blunder yesterday, very disappointed in myself. Yes it was an accident but thats just sad. I need to be more careful and figure all these things out. Whenever I have too much on my mind, something happens =(

Ive become hooked on reality tv shows like For Love or Money, the Bachelor/ette, Who wants to marry my dad, etc,...Its kind of pathetic actually but Id much rather spend a day watching these shows them get off my butt and do something productive,..you would think that Id actually manage to get enuf sleep and be relaxed with this type of schedule but noooo, still not sleeping so well (maybe I actually DO miss the bed), and Im still thinking about soo many different lil things, bleh,...

Officially booked my ticket to ISNA so it looks like I will inshallah be going which I am excited about. Itll be soo great having most of the Tufts group together in Chicago,..only 7 more weeks,......

We decided to do the dance to Mere Naseeb Mein. Most of the girls hadnt even heard it b4 and fell inlove with the song when they heard it. Dance practice was fun with the girls althou we spent most of the time eating chocolate covered strawberries and pizza (even thou we ALL claimed to be on a strict diet,..RIIIIGHT).

I really wanna go to Six Flags,..Ram thinks imma break the plan and not follow thru but its gunna happen, soon (I hope).

Pieces of Me by Ashlee Simpson,...beautiful song.
Hum Tum by U.N.I,..HOT song.

Wedding this weekend should be interesting,..I hope something comes out of it all bc we have been waiting patiently and now is the time for the next step,...lets see what goes down.

I luv talking to people late at night, lying in my bed. Its soooo entertaining and relaxing =)

At&t or Verizon??!?!?!

+ H.U.M.A. @ 11:09 PM

I finally FINALLY ordered a laptop. It was btwn 2 or 3 (Compaq, Dell and an Hp) but after doing EXTENSIVE research (yay, Im becoming a smart consumer) I saw that the Hp zd7000 series has the highest rating on 5-6 prominent computer sites so my decision was made. Its around 1600 with a 17 inch screen and some other really good specs. I cant wait to play with it.

Went to Farahs graduation party last night. I cannot get over how much those girls have grown up. Granted I havent seen them in 3-4 years but they are like little women and are mashallah very beautiful and VERY confident (and a bit scandalous, or so Ive been told). But it was great catching up,..we are planning a long overdue trip to Six Flags next week which I am really REALLY excited about.

All the uncles and aunties were soo surprised to see me there are were crazy praising me, for what Im not sure. Apparently some of the aunties inquired about my status with respect to marriage and whether I was open minded about meeting people. Hmmm,...Im glad we talked about 1-year commitment and what it entails. It eases my mind when these such topics are discussed because when things are left undefined and open to interpretation, thats where things get all wack.

Going to Nadus today to work on the dance for the Mehndi with Nadu, Huma H, Laylee, and Milli and Mustufa, Reyyan, Judd, Faisal and Samir (I think). This should be interesting. I love those people but they are a lil too much (minus Nadu) for me to have a deep relationship with. D-R-A-M-A like what,..but still great people.

Sameera from Boston IMed me. Apparently she knows Saara pretty well and will probably be attending the wedding,..man,..everyone in NEw Jersey is connected to eachother thru somebody, I swear.

Caught up with Alana yesterday. It was nice talking to her.

What the hell should I do about this whole ISNA thing? Muz (who was supposed to figure it out with me) called me at like 1 am last night and then the stupid ISNA site started running EVEN slower so it wasnt worth figuring out then. Hopefully we will straighten this all out today. IT means a lot to me how insistent D is on us coming and staying with them. IT will have been over 2 months of having not seen them and its only been a couple of weeks and I miss them so much already =(

The Hashmi sisters called about a party for Maliha next Saturday. I would have gone if I was still in Beantown but Nik and D can represent for the 3 of us =)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 11:50 AM

So wishy-washy about the whole thing, it is making me second guess myself and have uncertainties whereas b4 I was a lot more optimistic. Maybe I should just pass this time. I wouldnt want to ruin anyones bonding experience.

Got a VERY nice unexpected (well, he said he was going to call this week) from someone tonight who I have never spoken to on the phone. He is literally as nice via phone as he is genuine in person,....is it possible for someone to be so easy to talk to?

I was telling my parents today how much I love Katrina. I seriously confide in that girl more than I confide in ANY single soul, including my sister. I trust and respect her to the fullest and I cant say that about most other people in my life.

Went shopping today and bought/put on hold, a Queen bed, mattresses and a beautiful bedpost frame. I really need to figure out this whole med. school thingy once and for all. I got a beautiful bedset to go with it (but thats returnable).

I really like some of Avril Lavignes songs. She is kinda cute except she is a bizatch (or so I hear).

Omar got the job,...Im so happy for him.

+ H.U.M.A. @ 12:17 AM

Hung out with Muz and Omar today (random),..we went to Macaroni Grill for lunch and then went to look at labtops for me and finally went to see the movie, The Notebook, at the Loews on Rt. 10. The movie was such a cute romantic comedy (omars choice). It was a nice day.

Why is that everyone has been calling me from a bathroom? Either they are just sitting in the bathroom on the floor, or relaxing in the tub or even going to the bathroom! I think its hilarious and even kinda cute (except when they are using the toilet,...yea dont need to know about it)

Im glad we had our conversation tonight. It eases my mind a lil more to know things went well from all perspectives and overall the impressions were very positive.

Ok, so someone (I think the construction guy) stole my antenna off the Jetta 2 nights ago when it was in the driveway!!! Radio doesnt work =(
Then, T-bear threw a football and some girl missed it and it hit me in the face and my cheek/side of my nose still hurts =(
But, getting a labtop this week =)

I realized that Id rather not know what goes on then know. When I know, then things upset me more and I start to overanalyze EVERYTHING and it becomes really annoying. Not knowing is a lot more comfortable for me. Thou, not knowing leaves one very ignorant and naive...hmmm,......

I miss Nik. I just miss having someone in the house with me. Im going to miss not living with her. Its been a comfort to me having had her across the hall or in the room next 2 me for 2 years,..I was thinking today how it became like second nature to me to go into her room or her be in my room,...that other person was just always there and it was assuring to always have a friend so close to you,...

I hate that I have to start all over and make new friends,..DAMNIT

+ H.U.M.A. @ 2:09 AM

Nadu got a new baby dark brown kitten...he is sooooo adorable,..I named him Snickers =) I am going to get a cat inshallah if I decide to go to stratford instead of newark.

Jet skiing, water tubing, bbq at the Jamil and the Haques condo. Surprised to see Mustafa and Hussain there. Ly and Humie looking great as usual. Champ beefed up and seems more like Moose everytime.

It actually turned out pretty well, alhumdulillah.

DrSahab (shweet)
Yummy food
Good company/good dynamic
Great conversations
Impressive bunch of individuals

There are 2 sides to every story, so whats yours? Interested to know.

So? Only Allah (swt) knows.

+ H.U.M.A. @ 8:06 PM

Step 3: At this point it can go either way. Step 1 was difficult, making it known. Step 2, not so bad, atleast not for me,...and now its Step 3. Have been playing out different scenarios in my head, all the What Ifs. Optimistic but at the same time a bit scared and nervous.

I know what I want, the only problem is, is it what God wants for me?

Back from Tufts. It was really great being there and seeing everyone, like old times but not quite. It felt a lil different, I felt like a visitor (as I was) rather than as if I belonged there. I really enjoyed spending some time with everyone. I love my friends and I know that I will make an effort to keep them in my life. Most of the time was spent with Umbar, settling her in, taking her around and helping her with her drama. Im glad she is so happy and motivated, inshallah she will do well.

Ammmmi brought me Eggplant Parmigiana. Its soooo good. How come I couldnt find a single place in Boston even remotely as good as Jerzey places?

Went Apartment Hunting in Stratford this morning. Found 2 places, the second one being the one I want. Going down tomorrow w/ the parents to see if there is an apartment available in that complex bc the office was closed today,...I really hope they have one available bc I really like the place.

I have driven sooo much in the past 6 days its pathetic. Ive driven close to 1000 miles in less than a week. Its exhausting and Im starting to not enjoy driving anymore.

Saw some of my friends at UMDNJ-som this morning. It was comforting to see familiar faces and be in such a encouraging environment.

The next month is going to be hectic. Trip down today, Trip down again tomorrow, 4th of July celebration at the condo on Sunday, the meeting on Monday and soo on. I should start running again.

+ H.U.M.A. @ 6:56 PM