My cousin Saara got engaged last week,..apparently she and this guy were in love and seeing eachother (on the DL) for a while and at their ski trip w/ a bunch of pakis,.he read her a poem and tied a ribbon around her finger,..she has no idea! :: sigh :: She's 26 so is Ahmar,..Inshallah they will be very happy together,..It proves that if you really wanna be w/ someone,..you shouldn't give up,.even if the odds are against you,..

Went for a random outting last night,..drove to Jillian's then walked the Fenway and then walked back to the cars (in the freezing weather),.went to Krispie Kreme and back to Tufts,..eh,..atleast the company was good =)

Tomorrow is Eid Ul-Adha =)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 5:54 PM

Cute pj's :)

It's really meaningful and special spending time w/ people you luv even if you don't do it all that often. (101501)

Had lunch w/ Hana and Nick today. He is such a nice guy. Good lunch company, good dinner company,..relaxing, chill day overall minus all the mess w/ the trick who hit my car/the issues w/ the insurance companies,..BLEH!

Honesty is so important in any relationship (friendship, family, luv). Sometimes the truth hurts but it's the truth that allows you to move foreward in any type of relationship. And after you learn the truth, it is then up to you to decide what to do from there/ what actions to take. You must ask yourself, is it worth it?,..but more importantly than that, you must have faith in your relationship b/c without faith and w/o honesty,..you have no chance in hell.

Listening to Vital Signs, 'Dil Dil Pakistan',....=),...ahhhh childhood memories.

+ H.U.M.A. @ 2:23 AM

Went to dinner last night w/ Nik, D, Zaid, Muz, Amir, Usman, and Miss. Hana (the newest member to the Muslim group) =)

Usman is back from PK so the whole group is officially back which is nice.

Supposed to snow like a mother freaker (my new term) tomorrow,.ugh....I'm so tired of this weather.

My schedule is finally set just the way I like. 2 classes, monday, tuesday and thursday,..free Wednesday and Friday. Closing at the Brew Tuesday Nights and working Sundays till 5.

Eid is coming up in a few days,..I can't believe how time flies!!! I'm currently reading The Da Vinci Code,..it's SUch a good book,..no wonder everyone in the USA and beyond has or is reading this book.

Still haven't seen, Love Actually, Big Fish, The Last Samuari, or Cold Mountain,..but I plan too,........very soon

+ H.U.M.A. @ 6:33 PM

Last night I hurt someone I really care about and who has been such a significant and special person in my life,..I don't know how I will ever be able to forgive myself for that,...=(

+ H.U.M.A. @ 2:17 AM

Hung out w/ Muz, Nik, Safi and Afsan last night,.went to dinner then to Harvard Sq. then back to the MU.

Started classes today. I like my classes thus far. It kinda sux that I have to be registered as a full time student when I only really need 1 class to graduate,..oh well,...

Amir took me out to lunch today at this Italian Restaurant,.the food was really good.

My car looks so sad,...I was telling Amir that my sideview mirror reminds me of a bird that had its head shaved or is so old that its balding (losing feathers) on its head,..damn I'm random!

My Immortal-Evansense is such a beautiful song,..:: sigh::

I plan to work at the Brew today, tomorrow, saturday and sunday. I want to make some serious money b4 I graduate but I always cut my hours after like a week,..we'll c what happens

I'm helping Muz w/ MCATs by making him a day by day schedule of what to study. I hope it helps thou I'm pretty confident he will do very well.

+ H.U.M.A. @ 10:26 PM

Got into a car accident today IN the police station parking lot (wasn't my fault) AND I got a parking ticket and almost got my car towed at Logan airport after circling for 3 hrs =*( Luckily my door is only minorly dented in 2 places so it doesn't look that but but unforunately for her, the whole door needs to be replaced.

Seriously, at this pt. all I can do is laugh about it,..atleast my luck w/ cars is consistent!

Back at Tufts,..it's great to be back =)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 2:13 AM

5 girls: Nadia, Katrina, Diah, Nik, Eunice
5 guys: Aaron, Omar, Muz, Usman, Ashish

No explanation necessary

+ H.U.M.A. @ 2:30 AM

Hung out w/ Ash, Amita (his sister), Timy and Fariah (his sister) today for a few hours,...It was so weird seeing Ash again after 3 1/2 years,..b/c he is in med. school in India, I barely even talk to him either. Well,..all I can say is,...the Ash chapter is officially closed. I think I needed to talk to him and see him for closure. We were close friends and then the friendship abruptly ended in an argument and then during graduation week, we reconnected but things have never felt settled for me. Newayz, I needed this to end that chapter of my life, and it did.

DInner w/ Nadia last night. Met her friend Dave,..really nice guy.

I feel bad for Timy sometimes,..he is so unhappy w/ life and he has no faith in himself and his abilities,..he's a great guy w/ so much potential and I wish he could see what I see in him.

Talking to Omar online now,..the boy is cracking me up,..he is the best,....=)

After talking to Katrina today,..I realized something that has been bugging me all day. Aside from the fact that we are the same person, we have some serious issues,..What the hell am I doing? Why do I need to be doing this? All it does is cause more drama, confusion and problems in my life. Ugh,..I'm so annoyed at myself!!!!! That's it,...from today onwards things HAVE to be different,.or else,...Step 1: Create a new s/n.

+ H.U.M.A. @ 2:58 AM

+ H.U.M.A. @ 11:27 PM

I woke up last night and went to my bro's room to find that he had never come home so I woke up my mother to ask her what the deal was. Apparently, my Faisal was on-call at the hospital delivering babies,..my brother, at the hospital for 2 days STRAIGHT delivering babies,.wow,..it's so strange. When did he grow up so fast, when did we all?

So I chatted online w/ Azlan like all day yesterday b/c I was soooo bored and stuck at home. I wasn't ACTUALLY stuck at home but I didn't feel like going anywhere or doing anything,...getting bored as hell but just don't want to go back to beantown yet.

I spoke to Neelam for HOURS the other night,..I miss her,..granted our friendship began on PIA last january on the way back from PK,...but her situation is so similar to mine and she has 5 years of experience w/ this situation while I have only half of that. We exchanged updates and she gave me some really good advice,..she is the one and only person who could possibly even begin to understand me and where I'm coming from w/ regards to all this. I wish I could talk to her face to face =(

Finished 'The Nanny Diaries" and now I've started 'The Da Vinci Code" b/c EVERYONE and their MOTHER has read the book and can't stop talking about it.

FINALLY figured out how to get the 'my photos' site up so I've added the link to the other photo sites,...the pics are not bad thou I plan to take more photo of scenary, and still life in black and white.

Eunice just IMed this to me (my away message is up and has been all day):
as i an d ol l 4: hi huma, i hope ur still not mad at me ...i think our 'argument' got way out of hand and it got bigger than i intended ...maybe i was just being emotional and not understanding of ur life...in any case...i added you to my friendster ! bc i still do think of you as my friend altho our friendship might not be as great as it has been in the past ...anyways..i miss you ...dont call me....im embarrassed to talk to you and ur gonna yell at me ...stay warm !

Dude,..females are CRAZY!!!!!! But I'm so glad to have gotten that IM =) ::sigh::

Checked out where Taimur lives at Rutgers Newark. It's pretty phat how a lot of the students live in the hotels in the area.

+ H.U.M.A. @ 5:06 AM

So I hung out w/ Omar today after like FOREVER and I had honestly the BEST time,..whenever I hang out w/ him (which is rarely) I remember why he is one of my dearest friends,..we have such a connection that is sooo rare,..We were cracking up the WHOLE time about the stupidest things which only we would find funny =) I have never met ANYONE who is so similar to me,..we have so much in common it’s scary. Sometimes I really regret how little time I get to spend w/ Omar,..he is one of VERY few people in my life who has always been there for me and genuinely has good intentions,..God bless that boy

After that I went to Nadia's house and hung out w/ Samaira and Zehra,..GREAT girls,.mashallah,..it's nice talking to them about Islam and religion and what not. They are really easy to talk to. We are planning to inshallah hang out this week.

I’ve been really at peace w/ myself lately. Even my father mentioned that tonight, that since I’ve been admitted to med. school,..I seem so much more at ease. We were discussing that tonight, how college has been one of the most beneficial and positive experiences that I’ve ever had.

Inshallah, these last few months at Tufts will be as memorable and positive as the previous 3 ½ years =)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 2:49 AM

It's friday morning,..dropped Nik to the SH train station a few hours ago,.it was really nice having her here,.my family really likes her =)

Got a haircut a few days ago,..I hate cutting my hair b/c I love long hair but I new that I was definitely due for a haircut.

Trying to figure out how to create a link on my blogger that will lead to my online photo albums. I plan to get it set up this week.

I've been trying to look for possible donors for our IC project but I haven't been having any luck. It gets really frustrating sometimes b/c I feel like there is someone out there who would be willing and ready to just give us the 200,000-250,000 dollars but the problem is finding that person. I wish I had that kind of money to give to the project,..I really want to see this project succeed and inshallah it will but it requires serious patience.

Watched 'Friends' last night,.first episode of the last season...what a great show...speakin' of great shows,.I MISSED THE FIRST EPISODE OF THE LAST SEASON OF SEX AND THE CITY!!!! grrr =(

Ash is back,..he got in yesterday. It is going to be weird seeing him after sooo long but it'll be nice,.,.he was a good friend in high school.

Don't know when I'm going to return to Tufts,..it's completely up in the air,..I'll decide based on my mood 'n' how OVER-RELAXED I can get here in Jerzey,.but I can't deny it,.I love being at home w/ my family. There is nothing like luvin' from the fam =)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 1:45 PM

Nik's here in gude 'ol Short Hills, NJ. I don't think she was very impressed with our famous mall. She was like, "how could anyone afford to shop here?" I ask myself the same thing everytime I go there. Oh well!

Went to the city w/ Muz, Nik, Unaza and Jihan. It was great seeing Jihan but so sad b/c it might be the last time I ever see her. =*(. She gave me such a warm, strong embrace and a kiss on my cheek b4 she left and said she was going to miss me =(. It's sad how when you start becoming close to someone, you have to say g'bye. It just makes me think of all the g'bye's I'm going to have to say soon enuf. ::sigh::

Trying to keep Nik entertained. We went to the city and watched Uptown Girls (sucked) last night. On Monday night after she came and we went to SH mall, we had dinner, we played Caram w/ my mom (who is such a pro at it, it's sick), then watched Freaky Friday (not bad actually). I don't want her to be bored and I want her to enjoy herself but honestly speaking, NJ isn't the most exciting place, esp. since my friends are on vacation or have already gone back to school. But it is really nice having her around, I luv Nik =)

Spoke to Usman earlier today for a few minutes via MSN. Seems that he had a good connecton this morning so he was able to sign on. Funny how in PK it's like a hit or miss deal w/ having a good connection. Sounds like he is having a good time and relaxing so I'm glad for that.

It's supposed to snow like crzy ALL of next week,..that sucks! I'm going to be straight up under house arrest,...bleh.

+ H.U.M.A. @ 2:08 PM

My parents got me such a nice Coach planner today,..It's so purdy =)

Ok,..so I had such a disturbingly realistic, passionate, intense dream about a certain guy who I've known for YEARS but I'm not that close to. I don't know what to make of it. It's so vividly still in my head. I know that it means something but the question is what. We've always had an attraction for eachother but nothing serious at all,..so I'm totally confused...hmmmm

Watched 'Finding Nemo' w/ my family last night. It was so cute/so much fun watching it with them. My father thoroughly enjoyed it and my mom would laugh after everyone else did,.lol,.my parents are 2 cute.

Went to Chili's and Maggie moo's w/ the family for dinner tonight. I'm really appreciating the qt I've been spending w/ my family. Umbar goes back to Dartmouth tomorrow. She's pissed she gained so much weight this month. It's hard not too when there is nothing to do but eat, sleep and socialize.

I'm really feeling Christina Aguilera's music lately,..the girl has got a serious voice on her.

I got nothing but luv (143)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 2:57 AM

Happy Belated New Years!!!! It's 2004 already,..damn time flies.

It's been a few days. I'm back in Jerzey. Fortunately we got home before midnight b/c I really wanted to be home when the ball dropped. Overall the trip to Georgia was great. So relaxing and entertaining. I love my cousins. They are all so unique and interesting.

After several weeks of researching, I finally purchased a digital camera. Rather than going for appearance, I went for practicality and features. I'm really happy with my choice.

Spent today at dad's office helping him out. He is sooo unorganized so I tried to help him out with that a bit. I love my dad, he is such a kindhearted soul. His patients ADORE him,..I want my patients to love and respect me the way the do him.

Was supposed to go to the Nets game tonight but the plan fell thru,..oh well.

Faisal shaved all of his facial hair off last night. This is the first time he has no facial hair in almost 10 years!!! I HATE IT!!! He looks sooo young. Even he was like, 'uhm,..ok so atleast I know this doesn't suite me.' Umbar, Nadia and I were cracking up last night when he did it. The 3 of u watched 'How to Deal' w/ Mandy Moore. This is BY FAR the WORST WORST movie,..no plot, boring, and whoever wrote the screenplay tried to incorporate EVERY teeny bop/teenage problem in 1 movie,..stupid.

It's weird. I've been really relaxed and happy these past 2 weeks. I miss my friends and Boston but it's all good.

Supposed to be spending a day in NYC w/ a bunch of Tufts ppl next week so that should be really nice.

Happy New Year's baby =)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 8:25 PM