These past few days have been soo much fun. FINALLY saw Mona Lisa Smile, it wasn't half bad but my expectations were really high so I wasnt THAT impressed. Last night there was a dinner party at my phupo's house where we are staying. After eating great food and gupshupping, the whole family got together to tell stories and play games. It was sooo much fun and hilarious. Then tuesday morning 15 of us went bowling in the afternoon. It was freakin' crazy. My MOTHER bowled the highest score in the second game and she had no idea what she was doing!!!! Then we all went to Naveed phupo's house for a great dinner, played cranium and now we are all back and Tesneem phupo's house to watch a movie and eat a LOT of unhealthy food. Seriously,...this has been sooo relaxing and fun. I took a canoe and went around on the lake early this morning as the sun was rising,...it was sooo beautiful,.::sigh::

We are driving back tomorrow (today) the 31st of Dec. We are hoping to get home b4 the ball drops but we will see.

I'm missing my friends and Boston but these experiences now really help me to appreciate my life in Boston.

We went a city a few days ago in Georgia that was JUST LIKE PK!!!! It smelled like EXACTLY like pakistan and had little stores,..this time last year I was in pakistan getting ready to hang out with Usman and Omar (and co.),...damn, how life changes so fast in a year.

I'm looking foreward to Nik coming to Jerzey. It'll be really fun getting together in New York with the big group. It will probably be the last time we see Jihan =*(,..I've really become close with here over the last few months,..hmmm

Danish called me wanting to hang out in jerzey,...I don't know about that. We have never actually hang out and now he wants to after 4 years of being good friends via phone and computer and the occasional salaam at AIA? I'm starting to re-evaluate a lot of my friendships with people these days,...

Eunice and I are no longer friends,..=*(,..I can't try with someone who just wants to be stubborn and difficult. She is acting so unfair but I can't deal with it anymore.

Neways,..happy thoughts and happy huma =),..I miss Diah,..I read her blogger today and it made me miss her,..hmmm,..4 more months =*(

+ H.U.M.A. @ 5:43 AM

Long time since my last entry,..Well,..it's Monday and I'm in Augusta Georgia. Temperature: 65 degrees and counting, sunny, breezy,..amazing. It's like a different world here,..so peaceful and clean. There is a beautiful lake right behind my phupo's house. There house is btw, so beautiful. Yesterday Umbar and I went out with Asna, then the whole family went the Khalid Chacha's house for dinner, then Umbar and I went to Asna's house to meet her friends and then everyone came back to phupo's house and we played Taboo and ate junkfood. It is HILARIOUS playing games with adults,..seriously,..that's entertainment alone. We were cracking up the whole time.

There are 2 of my dad's sisters, 1 brother families here (that made no sense) and my grandparents whom I barely see. I wish Shaheen phupo and her kids Usman, Aisha and Amar were here. Usman and I clicked soooo well last time we met (3 years ago) and that's so funny b/c we had 'ish growing up. He was like, the angry, desi, muslim rights activist (whose idol was Malcolm X) but he has loosened up and he is a great guy and so much fun. He is the cousin on my dad's side of the family that I get along with the best. They said they are going to try to make it down here,..we'll c.

The drive took us a whopping 15 hours! Aiy yah! Kher, it was nice b/c there was some major bonding and deep future related discussions going on in the car. It's been a LONG time since we last did that.

I can't believe it's almost 2004! Dang, time flies like what. (hahaha, I'm so ghetto).

My cousins have changed esp. 2 in particular. Hmmm, I guess that's what happens when people grow up but they are still a lot of fun. It's great seeing my family from my dad's side, esp. b/c there were people I had never met!!!

This weather is to die for. I'm going to go make a cup of chai, and take a stroll along the lake side,.yay romantic thoughts =)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 2:29 PM

Going out tonite w/ Laila, Samir, Ahmed, his 3 brothers, Mariam, Aziz, Laylee's 5 friends from Rutgers, and the three of us. The plan is dinner and whatever else the night has in store for us.

It's X-mas eve. I absolutely adore this time of year. Everyone is so giving and happy. The weather is great. The tv movies rock and the sales at the mall are unbeatable (even thou I dont plan to shop much this break). I need to save up for next year at Med. School inshallah. My nani was teaching me how to make Gosht and Bangun today. She is going to teach me how to cook atleast 5 dishes a week. I really wanna perfect some of the dishes that I know how to make so that when I get married, my hubby will love my cooking:)

Speaking of Marriage, Abdul Uncle (dad's cousin) is here showing us pictures of his new bride. She is mashallah very pretty. She's 35 and he is 59 but he looks 40. His wife, Naseem aunty, died 2 years ago due to breast cancer =*(. I miss that woman.

Mommy is soo funny. She had the day off so she spent most of the day teasing me and umbareen. She has a wicked, sharp sense of humor. I love making fun of her =). Like today she is painting my room so she is wearing bright blue scrubs and a shirt umbareen painted in Kindergarten! She's got paint all up in her hair and I tell her she looks horrible and she says, 'well i still look better than u!'

So I've been keeping up with goals thus far but its only been 3 days so that's not saying much.

I've been thinking a lot about certain people and certain decisions regarding my future,..hmmm,..I had a LONG talk with mommy which daddy participated in regarding these such issues. Now that I know I'm going to be in the states (most probably Jerzey) things are a lot different. Had I been studying out of the states somewhere, things would have been a LOT different.

MY room is such a pretty color now =)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 9:30 PM

So it's Tuesday and I've spent the last 2 days at home, sleeping, eating, meeting up with friends, watching indian filums (hehe) and shopping with my sister. I've set a few goals for myself for this month that I hope to carry out from now on. I want to start saying all my prayers ON TIME and reading the Quran more. I also plan to read over the break. We are planning to leave for Georgia in a few days, and then come back and then Nik is coming to Jerzey to stay with me for 3 days and then she and Muz are probably going to head back together. After that, the plans are still in the works but I know my mother took off from the 9th onward for a few days so she and I defnitely want to spend some qt together.

It is absolutely beautiful outside. 50 degrees, breezy and sunny,..just my style.

I miss my friends already but I think breaks are really important b/c it allows people realize just how important their friendships/relationships are and not to take things for granted.

So I went to Faisal's room last night to talk to him and I jumped/sat onto his bed and b/c I was wearing my silky leopard pj's, I slipped right off the bed and landed hard on my butt on the floor! MY brother started cracking up! He was like, 'that's what you get when you wear leopard crap like that.' It was so funny

+ H.U.M.A. @ 5:36 AM

I'm so happy right now it's weird.

I arrived in Jerzey (4 hrs total,..speeding just a lil) to be greeted by my mother, father and grandmother with congratulation flowers for med. school. That's so sweet. I talked to so many people on the car ride down but there is one person in particular who I was really happy to recieve a call from. ::smiling:: Some people in my life can just put me on such a high sometimes but it's those same people that can really ruin ur mood and knock u down,.I guess everyone has people like that in their life.

Dropped Mr. Khan to the airport (I swear I thought he was going to miss his flight, the boy is CRAZY) then had lunch with the lovely ladies also known as Marlene, Diah (aka Dedah), Nik and Dewi at Porter Exchange.

I'm so tired but it's ok b/c I had a great weekend.

QUestion is, how long will it take me to get hella bored back in jerzey? We are leaving to Georgia soon and then possibly California, thou that plan is in the works.

One problem with having parents who are doctors is the fact that your house gets FILLED with gift baskets filled with biscuits, chocolates, truffles, etc,...It's soo bad 'cuz Umbar and I have NOOO self control, but Faisal loves it. Seriously, there are maybe 15 such baskets/food gifts already,..UGH!

+ H.U.M.A. @ 10:50 PM

Qt w/ the people I luv =)

Kaps and I are SlowLy SlowLy starting to be cool again but I don't want to jump into being friends w/ him again only to get disappointed.

Saw Lord of the RINGs Part III last night w/ shaq, D, Dewi, Nik, Usman. It was actually pretty good except for the last 20 minutes or so,.that was just pointless crap.

Katrina and Cristina helped me realize some really important things today,..they both told me I need to believe in myself and believe in my friends more,...I do, it's just that sometimes I can't help being somewhat pessimistic and uneasy about things b/c I'm afraid,...Being in complete control of my life has always been such an important thing for me but realizing that that is just unrealistic is hard to deal with,. Letting go, believing and trusting people and having FAITH is hard for me but I do have faith and I do trust and believe.

Nik and I spent ALL week together,.literally like 24/7,..Im going to miss her over break =*(

+ H.U.M.A. @ 9:34 PM

Cristina Aguilera's 'The Voice Within' is just a beautiful song,..damn

SO,..VERY unproductive day,..helped Usman pack donated clothes to send out for needy people,..Im glad he organized the clothes drive,.it's a great thing and people have SO much extra clothes that they never wear,....hell,..I should donate 1/2 my wardrobe,.actually,.I was seriously comtemplating doing that over this break but most of my clothes is in Jerzey,..

Went to Dhaba and Cheesecake factory with my Nik (who I've been spending 24/7 with) and Usman (who Nik and I noted has a sparkle in his eyes when he smiles). I'm sooo full but satisfied,...

Just chilled w/ Nik, Neel and Sunny,..Sunny is a funny kid,...

Seeing Lord of the Rings tomorrow night after I spend the day in Boston with Tamilla and her friends,..I'm going to miss Tamilla SOO much =*(,..she is a great person, so unique. ::sigh::

+ H.U.M.A. @ 4:12 AM

You know who really pisses me off? That lady from 'Weakest Link', Judge Judy, Richard Simmons, Howard Stern, Joan Rivers and her useless daughter, Mira Sorvino,...and there are a lot more but they are not coming to me at the moment.

So today was pretty useless. Ran some errands, went to dinner at Namaskar w/ Marcus and his gf, ceci, iris, alana, safi, muz, rodwell, falakay, and molly. It was nice chilling with all of them. Muz came over b4 dinner/after his exam and he was soo talkative and bouncy! He had so much energy; it was hilarious b/c that is so unlike Muz. I think he was just relieved that he was done. Then the muslim crew watched Lord of the Rings PII at the MU afterwards till like 1 am. I wasn't really in the mood b/c I was so tired and I wasn't making any effort to follow the story line but it wz still nice being around that group of people.

I feel bad,..I just spoke to Nawaf and Usman and they were saying that the exam was straight up killer =*(,.I hope they end the course w/ a decent grade they are both satisfied with.

It's almost 4 am and I'm about to drop Zaid to the airport. Im actually tired but I know how much it sucks to pay 40 bucks for a dull cab ride.

+ H.U.M.A. @ 6:35 AM

So I was watching Vh1 awards and someone said, 'every straight guy needs a gay guy friend OR a best girl friend 'cuz to dress them' I saw,..Amen to that! It's sad sometimes to see a gorgeous guy wearing clothes that just do nothing for him,..tsktsktsk,..maybe I should join the fashion police!!! Since u know, apparently I'm such a girlie girl who is so focused on fashion now (not true, btw).

So D 'n' Muz read my blogger yesterday and found out about my acceptance. Those kids need to stop trying to get all up in my personal business! j/k,.they were both so sweet and happy for me 'n' Nik was like dancing around my room.,..lol,..I dunno why but I'm not that excited yet,..I don't think it's hit me or maybe I'm just strange.

So I have about 4-5 days to relax and enjoy Boston w/ my friends,..Going out for dinner tonight w/ the fabulous freshman 5.

Azlan from LECOM is so nice. We have a lot in common. I don't even know him and he was so willing to help me out with everything in Erie. Their Muslim Group of friends were planning to take me out on Thursday night,..how sweet is that? It's so nice to have something like Islam that connects you to ppl all over,..

+ H.U.M.A. @ 3:11 PM

I'm sick,..I woke up after maybe 3 hours of sleep completely burning up and feeling naucious. But despite all of that,...I soo happy right now. The dean of the UMDNJ School of Osteopathic Medicine just called me to congratulate me on my admission to the Class of 2004! They're entering class consists of 80 some odd people and they chose me,..Alhumdulillah, I am so relieved to have been admitted somewhere. I really REALLY didn't want to leave the country and if I go there, I'm a 2 hr drive from home, 1 hr flight from beantown, and 5 minute drive from Philly!!! I'm going to w/draw all my other osteopathic applications and just wait to hear a reply from the allopathic schools (ie: Tufts and NYU MED). Oh thank God,...::sigh:: Now, I think I have to puke,..ugh

+ H.U.M.A. @ 12:56 PM

Apparently Omar was planning to come to Boston last night to spend a few days chilling with me but when I found out I kind of deterred him from doing so,..I would have been nice having him around. When he came for a week freshman year and surprised me we had SUCH a great time. He is one the most amazing guys I've ever met and he is always trying to do things to make me happy,..hmmm

Went to and then walked back from Porter. It was hella cold but a nice long walk. Finally finished with finals and all. Now I plan to just spend some time preparing for my interview. I haven't had any 'huma' time in a really REALLY long time so I plan to get me some of that over the next few days,..

Usman and Muz have been studying like crzy for their respective exams which are supposed to be hella hard,..It's so strange seeing them both so dedicated to studying. Inshallah they will both do great b/c they are smart cookies

+ H.U.M.A. @ 8:31 PM

I really find this snowy weather to be quite inconvenient. Working at the Brew ALL day and had to move my car in the middle of my shift so I wouldn't get stuck here at like midnight tonight but Nawaf and Usman drove me back to the Brew so that was good. Nawaf was so conveniently picking up Usman just as I was parking on Fairmount,.just my luck =)

The walk home from the Brew was BRUTAL,..it wasn't the cold that bothered me so much as the fact that I was literally slipping and/or falling the whole walk home,..No exaggeration,..it was so pathetic that a group of guys offered to help me walk home b/c they saw me struggling to stay on my feet!!! At one point I actually started cracking up b/c it was hilarious how I slipped with EVERY FREAKIN' step I took!!! Man o man,..

I feel so unproductive b/c everyone around me pulling all-nighters and this is the first time that I'm not,..I can't even enjoy the fact that my finals are over b/c all my friends are stressing =(

This whole Eunice thing is really getting to me,..I can't believe how much of a b*tch she is being,..it's really unbelievable,..she has to always be right and she is so damn stubborn,.ugh

Spoke to Omar, Timmy, Azlan, Umbie, Mommy, Muz, Fas, Cristina, Katrina, and Debbie last night, and Nik and I watched Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory =)

saw pics of Timmy online that kinda bothered me,..I know he is straight up into the whole 'scene' but it's one thing to hear about it and it's another to see it,..he showed me this pic online last night and I was like, it's a good pic but I thought you didn't like coke,..he's like,.'it's not coke sweety',..UGH! Damn alcoholics. Well, what can you do ::sigh::

+ H.U.M.A. @ 11:51 PM

ALLAH KA SHUKR Rabeya FINALLY had her mangani today,.THANK GOD!!! We just got the phone call from Pakistan,..Im soo happy for her,.she really loves Aftab and now inshallah they will be together. It's so nice how everything worked out for them..Im so envious of her ::sigh::

Finally went to Wrentham today w/ Nik,..actually didn't buy that much,..got a nice button down for my interviews and a jacket (which was pretty inexpensive),.other than that I'm just kinda bumming around and tryin' to figure some stuff out,..

Ok,..Im such an idiot,..Nik and I just figured out that the reason my room has been freezing is b/c I never turned on the heat in my room,.ugh,...here I was complainin' about not being able to sleep at night b/c my room is soooo cold and it was all my fault,..ay yah! (nikki's phrase,..I love Nikki =)

I don't know why but lately I've been getting really emotional about graduating and leaving Tufts and everyone here,..I was up till 8 am this morning talking to people online, on the phone and just doing random stuff (reading old emails, cleaning my room, saying my prayers (last day of fasting for me), browsing the web, etc,...

I think I'm going to pick up where I left off with the book I was writing over the summer,..I thought maybe I'd have to end it over the summer do to certain circumstances but fortunately, I got another year (is it a sign?),..I enjoyed writing my book and bringin' back old memories that I never want to forget,............

+ H.U.M.A. @ 11:32 PM

It's been fun but I knew it kinda had to come to an end sooner or later and it's better that it's over now than later, when someone can really get hurt,..besides,..our friendship is soo up and down all the time and that isn't healthy

I feel complete nothingness right now,..empty almost thou I'm not sure why,.hmmm

Went to a nice restaurant w/ Muz, Nik, D, Dewi, Safi and Shaq and then came home and relaxed,..have been feeling really burnt out these days,..passed out for 3 hours in the middle of the day and I wasn't even in my own house!

So D and Nik made this list w/ Muz of Muz's ideal woman and it's almost completely the anti-thesis of me, althou he deny's it,...but his argument? What do u care or not if u fit the criteria or not? BECAUSE IT'S STILL MESSED UP THAT's WHY?!?! It was like,.eats well, sleeps well, doesn't own 100 pairs of shoes (which we were discussing at the brew that SAME day),..hmph

It's 3 am and I'm eating a KK donut,.and b4 that I had a slice of cheesecake,.Atkins who? Yea,..I'm officially off the diet,.I'm just going to try to maintain what I lost (thou not at this rate I won't!!)

Diah is really charming,.she is adorable actually. I love her smile,..aww,.Imma miss D =*(

Eunice and I have been close close friends for 7 years,.and we just broke our friendship, for certain reasons,.we just blew up at eachother and ended our friendship,.she is one person who i've been able to identify w/ all thru HS. We were so close and so similiar,..I'm really upset but she is SUCH a stubborn bitch, she refuses to attempt to work things out,..this is soo messed up

+ H.U.M.A. @ 6:05 AM

'Can't nobody hold me down, I got to keep on movin' =)

For some reason, I'm on such a high right now,..maybe it's because I'll be done with finals by midnight tonight, or maybe it's b/c some people in my life just make me feel all warm 'n' fuzzy inside, lol =)

I love winter time,..hate the snow but love the nice cold nights walking on the streets of NYC, seeing shows, sleeping in front of the fireplace,..::sigh::

I'm sooo damn fortunate and sometimes I'm just so unappreciative for all that God has given me,...it's such a shame =(,.I'm going to try to change that

+ H.U.M.A. @ 8:59 PM

Have spent ALLLLLL day in Halligan working on this stupid paper for the CD/Drama project,..I'm kind of upset that I had to do the whole thing but I knew under these circumstances there really wasn't any other option =(

I had a dream about Ash last night,.it was really weird,..hmmm,..I wonder what it means,...I havent seen him in 2 years and he will be home this winter break,.this should be interesting.

I'm freakin' exhausted,...

Make every moment count b/c b4 you know it, the moment will be all but a memory

(sorry for the beat down, I had to get it outta my system)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 3:38 AM

"If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side"~DB

+ H.U.M.A. @ 7:05 AM

Alhumdulillah, interviews went well,...slept in a hotel alone right outside of Philly last night so that I could go to my UMDNJ-SOM interview this morning via cab then go from there to Philly Int. Airport via cab again,..hotel was really nice and warm but I was lonely (imagine, me a loner actually feeling lonely,..i guess i've just grown used to having people around me all the time)

Tired as hell,.Diah picked me up from the airport which was so sweet of her,..think I'm going to nap and then head over to halligan for a late night,..if I can make it there

+ H.U.M.A. @ 9:00 PM

Picture this,...sitting on a PACKED train for 8 hours (rather than the expected 5 hours) with NO HEAT AND NO LIGHTS!!! YES,..i said NO HEAT!!!! ugh, we regained power for the last 3 hours but the first 5 were really rough,...I feel really bad for the little kids on the train =(

But,..NO COMPLAINING,..sooo it's nice to be home AGAIN,..I had dinner with the family (minus umbie) and grandparents,..mmm home cooked food =)

My family is the best,..mom dad and faisal all came to pick me up which was sooo nice,.then we went to UMDNJ to see where my interview would be so that eased my mind a bit.

It was really sweet how Diah, Usman, Muz and Katrina were all so considerate/concerned about me getting to jerzey safely and on time,..I luv my friends =*)

Dad is SOOO funny,..we were eating (sipping??) soup with dinner and he kept breaking off tiny tiny lil pieces of bread into his soup and then quickly sipping it up with the spoon,.we were all watching him and he didn't even realize it. He was so caught up in what he was doing and so focused on it that faisal threw an entire piece of bread into his soup bowl and goes, 'there abu, enjoy yourself' and we BURST out laughing (even nanabu),.lol

Nik is sooo funny,..we were talking on the phone a few minutes ago,...I'm going to miss living with her =*(

Hmmm,...ok, Faisal is going to prep me so I'm out,.inshallah the next time I write an entry, it will be a very optimistic review of how the interview went,..so help me God

+ H.U.M.A. @ 2:50 AM

So I worked all week so that on Saturday I would be able to take care of some things like getting a suit for my interviews and stuff like that,..unforunately the damn snow completely ruined my plans and now I'm a bit disappointed, restless and my stomach is killing me (mmhmmm,..that's why) =(

I really dont like snow,..it's just impeding and dangerous in the sense that it's so unsafe to drive,..I hate being unable to do and go where I had planned to just b/c of the weather,...

Interviews in 2 days,...inshallah they will go well,.i really want to get into UMDNJ, inshallah things will work out the way God has intentioned and that will be for the best

'The excitement of the unknown, the thrill of the unexpected is lost somewhere, but I'm still here, held to you with a strength I didn't know was possible. It unnerves me to no end and yet it's a feeling I would never want to be without. For without it, without you, I would be incomplete.' ~Anonymous

I'll always push it too far,...=*(

+ H.U.M.A. @ 10:35 PM

It's 1:30 am and I'm sitting in Halligan with Katrina working on our project worth 100% of our grade (no pressure). I've been here for almost 8 hours straight w/o leaving even once. But it's ok, b/c I'm pretty focused and we are getting a lot done.

It started snowing =(,..I really don't like snow,..It makes things so complicated and COLD!!! My poor little jetta is sitting outside buried in snow. Speaking of Jetta, Ive decided not to risk it so I'm taking the train to an from Jersey for my interviews on this weekend (and who said I don't use public transportation!)

I'm really nervous for my interviews. I hope to use the time on the train to read over some stuff about the schools. I don't even know what I'm going to wear!

Whenever I talk to this friend of mine, I always hang up the phone with a smile on my face, feeling so at ease. It's those people in your life that one is truely fortunate to have and should not take for granted,...only question you should ask yourself is, does that person take you for granted? =)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 4:40 AM

"To see you when I wake up, is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do, is a 3-fold utopian dream.
You do something to me, that I can't explain
So would I be out of line, If I said I miss you,..."~Incubus

+ H.U.M.A. @ 3:04 AM

So I finally sent out every last application for Med school ('cept PK ones),..whew,..glad that's over,..now I just need to sit back, be patient and pray.

Nawaf is so cute,..but not in like a 'omg' way,..just generally,..he and all of Usman's EE friends are quite cute. I just decided to make a note of that so years from now when I read these entries I'll remember these things =)

Ok,..so I've decided that I actually am the single MOST unphotogenic person,..I hate being photographed or filmed or anything like that,..I'm just really camera shy,..I'm sure I'll get over it in a few years or so but for now I know how I feel and I just dont like being photographed.

This week has been so hectic and it will continue to be hectic as hell until the 20th of December, oh well,..I'll just take one day at a time and knock 'em down as they come =)

As a very dear person to me once said,..'Quite complaining woman!',..maybe I'll actually take his advice this time,.then again, maybe not :)

+ H.U.M.A. @ 5:15 AM

I was talking to a friend today about Thanksgiving and mentioned that I went home,..this was followed by a OH SHORT HILLS ::exasperation::,.people just need to get over SH already,..seriously,.it's just a town,...so what if on black friday the actual ambercrombie & fitch models from the ads were at the store in the SH mall posing for photographs?!?! (ok,.that WAS kinda weird) but still,...its a nice, quiet town and to me it's home so yay SH and yay Jerzey.

I fasted again today and plan to do so as well tomorrow,...I don't know why I was sooo hungry today but I've been eating every since I opened my fast,...I just had some tofu and steamed broccoli from East Asia (how come no one told me there was a late night THAI delivery place??!?!),..Right now I'm in Halligan trying to finish some work and dreading the long, freezing cold walk home (I'm leaving my car here tonight b/c people are getting tix on my street these days).

I wish I didn't have these thoughts,..it's so bad but I can't stop thinking about it,...is it wrong to feel this way?



That is just TOOOO cute (look at all those starry-eyed little girls dreamily watching Usman,...it's so sad that it's actually touching ::sniff::) =)
-Thanksgiving at Muz's House, picture stolen from Nik who stole it from Diah-

+ H.U.M.A. @ 3:58 AM

Nik and I fasted today for the 6 days of Shawwal. It is pretty easy fasting b/c I'm so used to it.

Prof. Morse agreed to write me a LOR for Med school which is really nice of him,..this whole med school application/interview deal becomes really overwhelming sometimes,..I just need to make sure I stay on top of everything.

I love eggplant (I'm eating it now),..I'm gettin back onto the Atkin's plan but not as strictly,..I'm going to just focus on balancing what I eat.

I'm glad we talked last night,..I was a bit hesitant to initiate the conversation but then I just sucked it up and decided,..no,.this is stupid,.we are friends and if something is bothering me I shouldn't just ignore it,..I really value spending q.t with my close friends, even if it is not very often,..

D made some really good oatmeal chocolate chip cookies last nite,..I need to get that recipe from her

Studied in Halligan last nite,..plan to do so for the rest of the week

How the hell is it December already? That's so unnerving and scary how time is flying by so fast,..it's so important to make every moment count but I can't help focusing on the fact that it might all end b4 I know it,.=(

+ H.U.M.A. @ 7:34 PM